Mikenna & Brielle

 

 

Brielle had no kindergarten today - and Mikenna had early release from school.  Brielle was so happy to see Mikenna walk through the door.  Mikenna is such a great big sister - she walks Brielle to and from the school bus and always watches out for her at school.  Brielle loves her big sister.....we were just talking about how Jaron is going to be a freshman this coming fall because high school registration is tomorrow night....yep - I am getting old and so is he!  She over heard Toby and I say that he will be going on his mission before we know it and she became upset; like she had just realized that she is the youngest and Jaron and Mikenna will be leaving the house before her.  She started crying saying that she doesn't want to grow up and that she doesn't want to be a mommy someday - and that she wants to stay my baby and live with me, daddy, Jaron and Mikenna together as a family.  I am a little worried about how she is going to handle Mikenna being in a different school and bus than her next year.  I am sure she will do great once she gets into a routine and gets used to it.  Brielle loves her family and wants us all to stay together forever in our beautiful home as a family.  It made me tear up a little because I am kinda struggling with Jaron growing up so fast and registering him for high school tomorrow.  I just don't know where the time is going.  I am mentally checking off things that I have always wanted to do with him - some have been done, others have not.  It makes you look at how you are parenting and hoping and praying at the same time you are doing your job as a parent and teaching and loving them and doing the things that they will need to live a good, productive life once they are gone from your home.  I want his happiness and I want to do my best as his mom.  Some days I feel like I am doing great, others OK and others like I am failing.....but I guess that's life in general.  Brielle warmed my heart tonight!  Someday we will all be together forever as a family.  It was good to see her perspective and made me think about the big picture and ultimately why we are here and where we are going and how life in general is pretty short compared to our eternity together as a family.  My kids teach me something every day, and for that I am thankful!!